What God Requires of Us vs. the Sin we See

As per God's Word, there are 2 verses specifically, among many others, that the Lord impresses upon my heart regarding sin, warning, and accountability. Here is the first verse about the actions of a sinner needing to be called into accountability lest their actions go unrebuked and their hearts become set to repeat the sin, thereby establishing a pattern of rebellion, aka a behavior.

Ecclesiastes 8:11 (NKJV) - "Because the sentence against an evil work is not executed speedily, therefore the heart of the sons of men is fully set in them to do evil."

In the NLT: "When a crime is not punished quickly, people feel safe to do wrong."

In the NASB: "Because the sentence against an evil deed is not executed quickly, therefore the hearts of the sons of men among them are given fully to do evil."

Like with the Watchman on the wall in Ezekiel's day, when a person is involved in an action that is clearly a sin per God, He instructs us to warn them and if we choose NOT to, because we are afraid of "ruffling their feathers" or the discomfort of doing so, then God says that WE will be held accountable in their stead.!!! That's scary. Therefore, as in the second verse, if we warn them and they choose NOT to turn away from their sinful actions or omissions, then our soul will be delivered from all part of their iniquity.

Ezekiel 3:18, 19 (NKJV) - These verses, from now on, will be copied from the Blue Letter Bible, a great study tool of a Chuck Smith ministry, and if you click on the individual verse citations, you will be able to read a variety of Scripture helps including a list of commentaries about them. Here is the website URL: http://blueletterbible.org/

Eze 3:18 "When I say to the wicked, 'You shall surely die,' and you give him no warning, nor speak to warn the wicked from his wicked way, to save his life, that same wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood I will require at your hand.
Eze 3:19 "Yet, if you warn the wicked, and he does not turn from his wickedness, nor from his wicked way, he shall die in his iniquity; but you have delivered your soul.

Per the NLT:
Eze 3:18 If I warn the wicked, saying, `You are under the penalty of death,' but you fail to deliver the warning, they will die in their sins. And I will hold you responsible, demanding your blood for theirs.
Eze 3:19 If you warn them and they keep on sinning and refuse to repent, they will die in their sins. But you will have saved your life because you did what you were told to do.

Per the NASB:
Eze 3:18 "When I say to the wicked, 'You will surely die,' and you do not warn him or speak out to warn the wicked from his wicked way that he may live, that wicked man shall die in his iniquity, but his blood I will require at your hand.
Eze 3:19 "Yet if you have warned the wicked and he does not turn from his wickedness or from his wicked way, he shall die in his iniquity; but you have delivered yourself.

The whole topic of a "sinful" matter comes under the heading of Accountability first:

There are a variety of types of accountability: Restorative; Preventative; Constructive; & Task-Oriented.

Denial (2Sam. 12:1-7) and Lies (Col. 3:9) "If a person is not willing to admit mistakes or failures, there can be no accountability."

Blame (Gen. 3:11-13) and Pride (Rom. 12:16) are enemies or obstacles to accountability being effective. "Humility is a cornerstone of accountability...and it is not easy to make oneself vulnerable to another person's scrutiny" (The Soul Care Bible, pg. 966).

"When a group meets for accountability, questions are asked that encourage honesty and revelation. 'Have you lied to anyone since we last met?' is an example of the type of questions that can provide structure to the meeting. "

"Accountability brings the body of Christ together in a supportive way to encourage us to grow in Christ. It allows the development and use of our gifts and promotes unity within the body. We grow by doing what is right. Through accountability, our faith is strengthened by the example of other's obedience" (TSCB, pg. 966).

For a believer to enter into a carnal lifestyle (aka "the brethren") evidences unacceptable behavior that shows an active, on-going action of the chosen sin that makes God a harlot and the sinning believer an adulterer in his lifestyle. An on-going action is not the same as a "Peter thing" of backsliding by his denials of Christ over a several day period.

The sin of adultery is an important topic for several reasons.

First, for a marriage to be restored, it's important to retain a heart of forgiveness and humility in order for that restoration to be possible.

Second, the faithful spouse, any children of the marriage, the church and God, have been offended by the adulterer, and confession and true repentance (a broken and contrite heart that turns a 180 from the sin and realigns with God's holy standards) needs to occur. God's Word says that unless there's a Biblical divorce, the sinning spouse makes anybody he/she gets with after the fact an adulterer too, by association.

Now we go to the book of Hosea, Hosea, whose heart was broken by his wayward spouse, Gomer, seeking intimacy with someone else. But "despite the hurt and anguish that Hosea experienced by Gomer's actions, he went to great lengths to find Gomer and bring her home." But just like how wayward Israel hurt and wounded God by their spiritual infidelity, He loved them and wanted them back." This is a good book to read in order to see a spirit of forgiveness in action as it relates to God and Homer.

"People faced with adultery struggle with some of the most painful of human emotions: abandonment and betrayal, as well as anger and despair. Although adultery strikes at the heart of the marriage covenant, forgiveness and healing are possible, and broken marriages can be and are being restored" (The Soul Care Bible, pg. 1128).

The God I serve, the God that is the Savior of my life and who has Headship of it, Jesus the Christ, is the God of the resurrection, and He alone makes what appears to be dead, live again. He can take a broken and bruised life, or marriage, and restore it or you back to glory beyond all comprehension.

In God I trust (Psalm 71), what about you?
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A few Quick References:

Accountability: Jer. 3:11

Adultery: Hos. 1

Boundaries: Ex. 20:1-17

Depression: Psalm 130

Divorce/Separation: Deut. 24:1-4

Family Life: Josh. 24:15

Family Problems: Gen. 25

Fatherhood: 1 Chron. 3:1

Forgiveness: 2 Cor. 2:5-11

Healing/Recovery: James 5:14

Health/Spiritual: 2 Sam. 12:1-23

Hope: Jer. 29

Jealousy: 1 Peter 2:1

Loneliness: Ps. 69:1-8

Love: 1 Cor. 13

Love Languages: 1 John 4:12

Marital Communication: 1 Pet. 3:1-9

Marital Problems: Col. 3:18-19

Marriage: Mark 10:1-12

Obedience: 2 John 6

Pain: 2 Cor. 12:9

Prayer: Mat. 6:5-13

Premarital Relationships: Ruth 3:10-14

Relationships: Eccl. 4:9

Repentance: Ps. 51

Responsibility: Jer. 1:8-10

Restoration: John 21:15-19

Sexual Integrity: 2 Tim. 2:22

Sexual Sin: 1 Thes. 4:5

Sin: 1 Kin. 8:31-40

Singleness: Matt. 19:12

Temptation: Gen. 39:6-15

Truth: Zech. 8:16, 17

Values: Gal. 5:22

My 2008 e-Portfolio Archived

Sandra J. Koster's
E-Portfolio
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"A Brave Heart is a Powerful Weapon" –Rudy Garcia-Tolson; Photo by Marite2007 on Flickr

TABLE OF CONTENTS

The page numbers were the active links on my original Geocities Webpage but are now reminders to me of my layout should I ever wish to recreate this e-Portfolio. Click the "back button" between pages. Have fun reading.

Personal Statement........................................ 1
Personal Statement

Hi, I'd like to introduce myself and tell you a little about my short and long-term goals, as well as share with you a few of my personal interests.

My name is SJK and I [was] am currently enrolled in the Paralegal Program at the Santa Fe Community College (SFCC). While I still have 2.5 semesters left before completing the Paralegal Program, I've been contemplating the idea of focusing my legal attentions on the field of Intellectual Property. Certainly this decision is likely to change as I continue to learn more about the many fields available within the legal camp.

Being as my heart's passion has always been Healthcare, and since I have many years of experience working in it with humans as well as Equine, namely Thoroughbred Race Horses, there is a great chance that my future in the legal profession will embrace aspects from both worlds.

Genetics are near and dear to my heart and since Pedigree is of paramount importance to racehorse breeders, I can certainly see how genetic engineering could possibly take a "front-seat" role one day within the racing industry. Additionally, we already know that DNA evidence and gene manipulation are of serious importance in the legal camp as well as the Medical world, which equates to future needs for workers that are well versed in these areas.

Given this awareness, one can readily see how important securing patents on this type of intellectual property already is and will continue to become. Bio-technologies and e-technologies have become huge businesses globally.

Therefore, being a "detail oriented, critical thinker" with a scientific mindset, I am confident that I will be an asset to the right legal firm in the very near future.

In addition to my personal educational goals, I find relaxation and invigoration by applying myself to a number of other interests:

Helping to serve other's needs.

Animal Welfare: rescue, rehabilitation, placement, and adoption.

Environmental Protection: education, awareness, recycling, energy efficiency, and all aspects involving our global warming concerns. Let's go "Green"!

Cooking: Gourmet vegetarian, all natural and organic, and hot and spicy.

Photography

e-technologies

Books

Medical issues: Bio-technologies, anatomy & physiology, genetics, terminology, 3rd World issues.

Legal issues

And now, I thank you for taking the time to peruse my e-Portfolio. Have a great day! Bye.

Microsoft Word Documents.......................... 2

MS Word Documents

Examples of my research and writing skills:

v genetics
MS Word Documents

Examples of my research and writing skills:

v genetics

v project1a

v project1b

v project2

v project3

Examples of my document formatting skills:

v MediaLoft Buzz

v Perennial Garden

v Chicago Marketing Report

Excel Spreadsheets........................................ 3

Microsoft Excel

Examples of Spreadsheets I've created:

v carloan

v olive

v survey

v timesum

PowerPoint Presentation............................... 4

"To Behold His Glory"

My Blog......................................................... 5

http://in2books.blogspot.com

First Webpage Created.................................. 6

"Radiography Webpage"

Widget Web Services Webpage.................... 7

Widget Web Services, Inc. E-business Services

We offer the following services:

Web-based Software Training
Providing online tutorials in MS Office,
StarOffice, and the Windows operating system.

Click here to view our Customer Service Presentation.

1 Customer Service: What, How, Who, and Why?

2 What is Customer Service?MEETING OTHER’S NEEDS: Human, Animal & Environment
COURTESY
RESPECT
SINCERE INTEREST
MORE THEN A JOB TITLE!

3 SMALL PIECES IN A BIG PICTUREPERSONAL ATTENTION
Ask questions
What do they need?
LISTENING
Response required
Customer Constraints?
Analysis of facts
FOLLOW THROUGH
Investigate & Implement
Contact all parties involved
Customer Satisfaction
Closure

4 Two Rules to Always Remember:
1) The Customer is always right!
2) If the Customer is ever wrong, refer to rule #1.
5 Who needs Customer Service?Shoppers (realtime and on the Internet)
Consumers
Clients
Patients
Patrons
Pets

6 Who is a Customer Service Rep?Telemarketers
Healthcare Providers
Legal Professionals
Wait Staff
Pet Groomers
Investment Brokers
Law Enforcement
Military

7 How Do Reps Behave?As people with character and integrity
With a “servant’s heart”
Like people who invest in the lives of others rather then themselves
As givers, helpers and doers
With love
AND…

8 Bottomeline is...Why? Because without happy customers, clients, patrons, pets and people…You’ve got nothing, nobody and no business, job or money ! You won’t have a nest egg.

E-Training
Consultation services are provided to help you and your organization maximize the power of the Web to meet your training needs.
Click here to read about Web design.

"A Websmith's Recipe for an Effective Business Webpage" by Sandra J. Koster

E-Commerce
Consultation services to help you transition your organization effectively to Web-based sales and services. Click here to read about e-business.

Widget Web Services, Inc. is here to serve your Webpage e-tool needs. Consultants will determine how you and your company can get the most "bang for your buck" through the personalized creation of your webpage. We link the world to you through our user-friendly e-commerce e-tools.

The tables below contain links to a few websites that contain useful web and graphic design information:

Web Design:

Grantastic Designs

Symbiotic Design


Graphic Design:

Finer Design

Visionary Websites

Last Revised on Friday April 6, 2007 by Sandra J. Koster

Thanks for visiting. Any questions or comments you may have about this site, or in general, are important to us. Please contact the Websmith by clicking on the following link:

Widget Master:

Contact Information: Widget Web Services

43rd and Broad St.

New York, NY 21932

Click here to send an E-Mail: sonkistsaving@yahoo.com

Visit WWS E-Business Services here and click on the following link to view our Customer Service Presentation

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Last updated by Sandra J. Koster on 4/16/07
Resume.......................................................... 8

NAME
Temporary Mailing: FL 32696 ~ Tel: (352) hm. or (352) cell
Permanent: Santa Fe, NM 87505
~ E-mail: ~ E-Portfolio: available upon request

Summary

Former NM resident of 17 yrs. returning home. Reliable professional seeking permanent
Paralegal or legal Support Staff position with growth potential.

Qualifications


Windows: Microsoft Office proficient including Outlook, and trained in E-Source
technologies.

+ 65 GWAM. Exceptional proofreading abilities with good executive function.

Cross-trained on multiple computer and office systems.

Analytical abilities with strong initiative; management experience

Top notch organizational, prioritizing and follow through skills for multi-tasking

Effective verbal and written communication skills (Pleadings, Civil procedures, case
management, demand letters). On-line and legal book research technique.

Court document maintenance procedures. Maintain Judge's library. Ability to work in a
fast-paced environment, detail-oriented team player though self-regulated and selfdirected.

Extensive knowledge & experience in Medical & Sports related issues

Achievements


Completed numerous "communications" seminars. Mature & dependable.

Completed OSHA , Fire & Bomb Safety, and HIV & AIDS training.

Certified in American Heart Association First Aid and CPR.

3.87 GPA, Dean's List, The National Scholar's Honor Society, and Phi Theta Kappa.

American Law, Business Law, Tort, Medical Terminology, Anatomy & Physiology,
Healthcare, Psychology, Critical Thinking, Web Publishing, Excel, Keyboarding 1 & 2.
Internship, Litigation, Real Estate Law & Property, Internet for Office Professionals,
Employment Law, Legal Writing & Research, and Wills, Trusts & Estate Admin./Probate

Education

Santa Fe College Gainesville, FL
Legal and Medical AS, Paralegal Program (April 2008)

Santa Fe Community College Santa Fe, NM
Biology and English 1990 – 1997 (cont. ed.)

Employment

Newberry's Backyard Bar-B-Q, Newberry, FL
Server 5/22/08 to and thru 9/2009

8th Judicial Circuit of Levy County: Honorable Judge Glant
Paralegal Internship 7/9/ 2007 to 12/21/2007

SFC Gainesville, FL
Full time Student Jan. 2006 through April 2008

Adena Springs Racing Farm, Ocala, FL
Exercise Rider (former Pro. Jockey) April 2002 – March 2005
Administrative Assistant Jan. 2004 – Oct. 2004

Genzyme Genetics, Santa Fe, NM
Cytogenetic Technician, Senior Tech. Dec. 1987 to March 2002


Favorite e-Mailing Lists................................. 9
e-Mailing Lists

Here are a few of my favorites:

v A.Word.A.Day

v E-Mail Edifications

v Harvest Daily Devotional

v Daily-Manna

v Avera Law Firm

v AISH

v Medscape

v CNET

v Heartlight

v Snopes


Favorite Poetry.............................................. 10
Poetry

A few of my favorite poems:

v If

v Daffodils

v How Do I Love Thee

v Resolutions

v Stopping by the Woods on a Snowy Evening

v The Men That Don't Fit In

v Oblivion

v Resolutions2

v To See a World in a Grain of Sand


"All friendly feelings toward others come from the friendly feelings a person has for himself" -- unknown


A Little Humor.............................................. 11

Dedicated in memory of my Mom................. 12


In dedication to my brilliant and inspiring Mother, Patricia M. Koster, who spent her life filling her mind with a wealth of knowledge so that she could be "all things, to all men, all the time". The saying, "Books fall open, you fall in," is a testimony to her life. [picture missing]

She was born in 1927 and died on July 11, 2006. Below is a copy of the painting that my deceased uncle, Eugene Koster, painted of her during the 1950's. Norman Rockwell found this painting to be the best, in an art show my uncle had some of his works on display in. He painted another portrait of my Mom's sister, my Aunt, which is equally as beautiful. They were real "lookers" in their day! [picture missing]

My Mom grew up to become an avid, trophy winning golfer when few women were in the sport. She also had an "eagle eye" for shooting a rifle and was known as the Annie Oakley of her day. She won "clay pigeon" shooting competitions as well.

This is her as a young girl. [picture missing]

Even as a young girl, she was moved to be heard and wrote the President of the United States, Franklin D. Roosevelt, to address the needs of her father, my grandfather, who was out of work during the recession. He wrote her back and while sympathizing about the misfortunes and hardships of the times, FDR encouraged my mom to become a leader in the Girl Scouts. And a leader she was.

My Mom and Aunt went on to become executive secretaries for E.I. DuPont, and stayed with the Company for over 30 years. My Mom was a giving and understanding soul, not standing in judgment of anybody. She constantly gave out of the abundance of her own poverty, unselfishly, not expecting anything in return.

My Mom spent the last 4 years of her life living with me in FL where she had opportunity to relax on the screened-in porch, do her crossword puzzles, drink her tea and watch the vast array of migrating and local birds come to our feeders, along with the 50 million squirrels, and observe the wild looking Florida spiders and bugs…which constantly fascinated us both. She too loved animals, was also a former equestrian, and especially adored her cat, Lotus Blossom (a Snow Shoe). [picture missing]

Now that my Mom has passed, my relationship with her only sibling, my Aunt Dolores, has taken on its own beautiful hue. She has become my new confidant, counselor and friend; the roles my Mom once held. Below is a picture of my Aunt Dolores and Uncle Jack (also deceased), that I took of them in DE around 1988.

I applaud my Aunt for assuming such an influential role in my life and I'd like to lift up all those people, younger and older, who take on a mentoring position in the life of another. Afterall, we really are "our brother's keeper".
___________________________________________________________

The heart and crown insignia are representative of my chosen "colors" as a former professional jockey. I own a racehorse by the name of Herz Koenig. His name is German for Heart King, or King of Hearts. This is where placing the heart over the crown comes into play. I have named my property (a corner parcel) after my horse and the Lord Jesus, The King of Hearts, who provided it for me and my Mom.. It is called, Koenig's Korner.




Last revised Mon. March 3, 2008

Shoo!TAG Cost Analyses & Effectiveness Update

Hi y'all,

As promised, here is my final input on what I've experienced thus far as a Shoo!TAG user. Beginning June 11th, 2009 I purchased tags for all of my animals, including myself. The Equine tags were for fly/mosquito, the Canine tags for flea/tick, the Feline tags for flea/tick, and the Human tag was for mosquito.

None of the tags were effective any longer then 5 weeks though the manufacturer purports the tags will last 4 months and that they will be 40% cheaper to use then Frontline Plus.

Well here are the various cost analyses based on a 5 week effectiveness period. None of the costs calculate in local sales taxes or shipping charges:

Equine: $34.95 for one pack of tags, costs $27.96 a month. Pyranha used twice daily costs $12.50 a month.

Canine: $39.95 for a 2 dog pack costs $15.98 a month per dog. Frontline Plus for the Extra Large dog upto 130lbs. then dosed between 2 smaller dogs at 1.5 mls. & 2.25 mls., with a 0.50 mls. left to divide between 2 cats, costs approximately $6.00 a month per dog (cats treated free).

Feline: $34.95 for a 2 cat pack costs $13.98 per cat, per month to treat. Using the excess Frontline Plus from the dogs, NOT Advantix as it's lethal to cats, makes treating 2 cats free.

Human: $24.98 for one Mosquito tag over a 5 week period brings the cost to $19.96 a month. These tags are worn on all animals and humans, 24/7. Sleeping with a piece of plastic around your neck, like on the horses head, ends up stabbing you in your armpits, your breasts, neck etc. Plus, you still get bit by mosquitoes, though maybe not as bad. I now continue to use my herbal pest sprays, which work just fine, and only cost about $5.00 a season.

Overall, I would NOT depend on these tags in places of any type of pest infestation. Like don't go to the Amazon and think you won't get bit. And don't depend on them with your animals either.

In a clean apartment dwelling, with one tiny animal, bathed and groomed weekly, at 7000 ft. altitude, I'm sure the tags will work just fine, because...there won't be any flies, fleas or ticks to even worry about so of course the tags will work.

So, Shoo!TAG Equine was the most effective of any of the tags. It truly did work quite well on my horse for the first 3 weeks, but diminished in strength daily after that. Plus, even with 2 tags on my horse, one on his mane by the poll of his head, and one on his tail, the energy field was NOT stronger.

Additionally, horses are large animals weighing up to 1200 or more pounds that like to roll in sand/dirt, scratch on trees and fenceboards, run, jump, get things like braids out of their hair, etc., and the Shoo!TAGS do in fact get scratched up, bent, broken, lost etc. They're only flimsy plastic like a credit card, so what else would be expected??? If the horse or its companion goat get a chance...they'll eat them too.

Now, $170.00 later, I can honestly attest to having given this Non-toxic, environmentally safe (though the production of plastic is not eco-friendly) alternative a fair chance and the results have me back to topical pest control, backed up by aggressive inside and outside pest control.

My Radiography Webpages Preserved

Hi Y'all,

On Oct. 26, 2009 Yahoo will be shutting down the Geocities branch of their various available applications (which was free, but new services for $60.+ a yr. are available), so for those of us that would like to reference the material we posted, we have to save it to our system or post it elsewhere before the cut-off date. Therefore, I'm attempting to preserve my writings here. This page was my first attempt to creat a webpage, while applied to the Radiography Program of Santa Fe College in Gainesville, FL, back in 2005. Have fun rereading the archives!



MY INRODUCTION PAGE AND VARIOUS AFFILIATED LINKS





Radiography

Career Web Project
SLS1101, AM2
Teacher: Donna Musselman


Summary
Essay
Photo Gallery







Descriptions:

Radiologic Technologists and Technicians

Radiologic Technologist


Professional Organizations:

American Society of Radiologic Technologist

American College of Veterinary Radiology


Schools, Colleges, or Universities:

University of Pennsylvania: School of Veterinary Medicine

Santa Fe Community College, Radiography Program - [dead link now]


Employers:

ACVR-Veterinary Radiology - [dead link now]

Peterson & Smith Equine Hospital, Radiologic Technicians

North Florida Regional Medical Center


Non-Web Sources:

Merrill's Atlas of Radiographic Positions & Radiologic Procedures

Principles of Radiographic Imaging

Radiation Protection in Medical Radiography


A very special thank you to Jimmy Yawn of SFCC's Career Resource Center for all his help in creating this webpage. Without his instruction this project would not have happened. Bless you Jimmy!

rev. June 24, 2006
web hosting 174 viewers as of Aug. 6, 2009


MY SUMMARY



Hi y'all,
My name is Sandra Koster and I've applied to the Radiography Program at SFCC. SFCC stands for Santa Fe Community College, of which there are currently 2 in the United States. While I transferred from SFCC located in Santa Fe, NM, I am now attending SFCC in Gainesville, FL, where I reside. There is no affiliation between the two schools aside from their name.

This Website is my attempt to share with you the direction and progress of my life while remaining a source of encouragement to those of you, who like me, have found yourselves "starting over" with a new career midway through your life.

After extensive investigation and much thought, I have chosen to present a number of sources directly associated with Radiology which are distinctly different from one another, yet still part of the same medical discipline.

I hope that these links will help to stimulate your mind to "think outside the box," so to speak, whether choosing a new career or starting over, and regardless of the direction in which your life seems to be going, remember that it's important to retain a good attitude.

Essay



To begin with, the photographs that you viewed on the opening page of this website are of me just after a serious racehorse riding accident involving a speed of 44 mph., and my being catapulted into a very large and firm 3/4's pole much like an Oak tree. The collision left me with a broken ankle, a broken tibia, a huge lateral femoral lesion, 2 torn ligaments (MLC & PCL), a huge hematoma on my thigh that I was told I'd have died from had it have ruptured, a concussion, a sprained neck, brain trauma, brain stem injury, migraines, 7 broken teeth, TMJ (temporomandibular joint syndrome), vertigo, numbness and paralysis due to 2 herniated disks in my neck, 2 herniated disks in my lower lumbar, and stammering and stuttering where I used to be very articulate in my speech.

Three surgeries later, and a full month spent in the VAX-D Lumbar traction program, I am now enrolled as a full time student at the Santa Fe Community College and have applied to their Radiography Program in hopes that I will be selected as one of 30 students to participate in the program, out of approximately 300 students to have applied. Coming from a racing background, while these odds sound horrible, one time I did win on a 125/1 shot at Atlantic City Race Couse in NJ, so remaining optimistic about 10/1 odds now is no problem.

Sometimes these career changes in our life come of our own selection, and other times, like mine, we're thrust into them. Whatever the reason, I've come to learn that there is truth to the saying, "blessed are the flexible for they will not be broken." While I sustained lots of "physical" breaks, humans are basically fragile and we are susceptible to lots of other types of breaks and fragmentation as well. For instance, psychologically it is very hard for most of us to adjust to the reality that our entire life has been uprooted in an instance and now we must attempt to pickup the pieces of our shattered existence and start afresh, and typically this requires re-education, as in returning to college. In mid-life, this can be very scary.

What I have found to be essential in such circumstances is "full surrender". A complete acceptance of the need to totally reformat your life. It requires that you abandon yourself to God, and trust that he will provide your "daily bread" so to speak, both literally and figuratively. For me, faith and trust in the Lord is what sustained me throughout this entire horrific ordeal, and continues to equip me to "keep on keepin on". It's been 15 months now since the date of my injury, which was March 13, 2005, and the uncertainties of my future continue to haunt me being as I don't yet have solid footing on my future. Humans are creatures of habit, we like the security that comes with routine and to date, that security still eludes me.

While I have a "game plan" outlined, only the Lord knows what will truly come to pass. So, until such a time as when I know more, I shall just press forward with the course of action laid out before me, taking each thing that comes into my life on a moment by moment basis but remaining optimistic regardless. This brings us to the present--my being a college student in my 40's.

There are many thoughts that come into a person's mind when they re-enter the world of higher education and they are out of a job, lacking the freedoms and liberties that a stable income provides (and what we "had" been accustom to), all the while being under the gun, so to speak, in meeting the financial obligations that one is already committed to. Weeding out the new career possibilities and weighing out the benefits of those selections to determine a final course of action becomes paramount.

As I was putting this web page together, which is an assignment for a class I'm taking this summer semester in hopes of gaining the points that come with obtaining an "A", (the Radiography Program offers approximately 9 additional courses that students can take as extras in order to accrue points to become more competitive in the selection process for the program), I came upon an interesting link which I'd like to share with you. Regardless of whether or not you're selecting a new career or perhaps looking for the "greener pastures" that come with a career change, it does demand reflection so I encourage you to check out the thoughts of another total stranger who has also contemplated the positive and negative aspects associated with such a change. Because in my perception this guy appears to be smart, makes sense, is accomplished, is going places, and is subject to all the variables of uncertainty like all the rest of us are, I recommend that you check out what he has to say. The following link which will take you to an article written by graphic designer Jonathan Gayman, based out of New York city, titled "Designing Greener Pastures" contains his thoughts on this subject.

Now, having cleared up my background information, let's get back to the positive aspects of my bright and brilliant future yet to be, in the field of Radiography. Coming to the realization that Radiography was to be the field of study that I needed to apply myself to was actually very simple. First off, I made a list of those areas of study that I know that I'm gifted in. I then researched what vocational programs were being offered by all the schools within a 60 mile radius of my home. Then I counted the costs of my monthly overhead and sought out "financial aid" for students in my bracket as well as applied for retraining through the Dept. of Ed, Worker's Compensation division. Following that, I considered what types of environments I function best in, for instance, I'm an outdoors kind of person that is allergic to cigarette smoke and am chemically sensitive as well. Therefore, working in closed-in environments subject to a lot of artificial smells and synthetic heat doesn't work well with my "system". Keeping that in mind, I also considered the fact that like all things living, I'm too am still aging.

As we get older, we need to have a realistic view of what we plan on doing for work during our "golden years," and we also become fixed on obtaining a job with good healthcare benefits. Then, there is the very real acceptance of the new physical limitations I have after coming close to death from getting all broken up like I did. After weighing my options carefully and praying about it, I based my decision on all the above criteria and reviewed the median salary ranges for a Radiographer (as well as a Paralegal should "Plan A" fall through). I concluded that if I was to apply my skills in the clinical setting of a hospital for humans, then the sterile aspects and temperature control of that environment would work well for me. Especially since I've already worked in such an environment for 15 years in Santa Fe, NM as a Cytogenetic Technician. But if I'd like to apply my skills to helping Thoroughbred racehorses, like Barbaro, then that would be like icing on the cake since I'd be both inside and outside, with people and with animals, especially large horses with a temperament that I can relate to and love.

So, thinking outside of the box, despite the limitations that I've been restricted to now by my Neurosurgeon, meaning "no more riding racehorses as a profession", I'm still able-bodied enough to help others, and helping others is what it's all about anyway. What I've learned from the multitude of injuries I've sustained, and all the many tests I've had to undergo, namely: Radiographs, MRI's (Magnetic Resonance Imaging), CT-Scans (Computed Tomography), brain scans, electrophoresis, nerve conduction studies, learning how to walk all over again, aqua-therapy, physio-therapy, deep massage therapy, aptitude tests etc., that there is a great big need out there in our little tiny world for healthcare workers who are empathetic to the patients in their sufferings and life disruptions that real life presents. And once again, that need transcends the human element to include all life. Animals can't communicate with a language that we are most familiar with therefore, we must be tuned-in to being able to hear their heart's cry and know what they need and what would bring them comfort. Unfortunately, Thoroughbred Race Horses have been falsely labeled as being "unruly, fractious, psycho, nuts, crazy, etc.," and nothing could be further from the truth. They are an elegant, majestic creature of the finest caliber that closed-minded people don't bother to take the time to understand. I've spent about 15 years working with racehorses and own one myself. They will be your best friend, and play with you much like a big dog if you let them. Well, the lack of vested interest in communications is how it is to a great degree within the hospital settings too, among healthcare workers. Because they for the most part, don't feel the pain and suffering of the injured party, or because the injured party may happen to be of a different culture and adhere to different societal norms, unfortunately, the "supposedly educated" healthcare worker chooses to ignore the pain, suffering and need of the patient rather then taking the time to dig deep inside of themselves and apply themselves to understanding what is trying to be conveyed. And I know this is true first hand, and not just in Florida, but all over the world.

Therefore, when one does come across that certain healthcare worker that truly cares about your wellbeing and opts to go out of their way to accommodate you, they touch your life so deeply that you'll never forget the love that was conveyed. For instance, there was a time that I was injured in a race at the Fairgrounds Race Track in New Orleans, LA. I was on the X-Ray table and extremely nauseous and very upset because I'd left my dog in my car (not thinking that a routine exam was going to get me admitted in the hospital), in some parking lot, with a hand gun in the glovebox, and my dog needed to go to the bathroom.

Well, my anxiety over these matters was making me even more ill and febrile, so, the Radiography technologist assured me that she'd take care of matters. And she did. She went out in search of my car on her lunch break, found it, approached my car with a Dobbie Shepard mix in it, made friends with him (Astro), took him for a walk, hid my handgun, called my brother to come get my dog, and then brought me an apple, being as I'm a vegetarian and she thought that it would make me feel better. Well let me tell you, this girl so touched my life that now, some 24 years later, I've applied to take up the cause of helping others through Radiography that she began all those years ago. I don't know where she is these days, or what her name was, as over the years I'd lost touch with her, but nonetheless, her choice of actions in caring for a total stranger, in a big and out of the ordinary way, touched my life forever and made all the difference.

Moving on up to the more recent present, it was this past Christmas that I had to have my neck fused. I had that work done at North Florida Regional Medical Center, in Gainesville. I will tell you, the day of my surgery was December 14th, 2005, and the shift of nurses that worked the operating room for neck and spinal injuries, and then those that worked the floor that night in the neck and spinal ward, were the most loving and compassionate group of ladies and men, that I've ever experienced aside from that Radiography Tech. There is nothing like waking up in pain, feeling like hell, and having somebody come to your aid who really cares about you and your needs, no matter how small they may be perceived to be.

Those particular folks at NFRMC that day and night, were so genuine. I've never met a group of people so called to their profession as those nurses. They sincerely have servant's hearts and that makes all the difference in the world to a patient.

If I am selected into the Radiography Program, I will be looking to sign-on to working in the Radiology department of North Florida Regional Medical Center first and foremost. After that, I'll be considering my options working with my former employer, Adena Springs South, a Racing Thoroughbred Farm in Ocala, in their yet to be developed Equine Medical Center. God bless you all and stay positive in your career search, and do remember that being "healthy" is about wholeness in mind, body, and spirit. Bye you, and have a great day!

UPDATE: As of Aug. 2006, (one month after my Mother passed on) I was notified by SFCC that I did not draw into their Radiography Program. While my dear friend in Santa Fe, Tom Reed had committed to sponsoring my education to continue in the healthcare programs, he unfortunately underwent a brain aneurism which rendered him unable to fulfill his financial committment to me. Therefore, it was imperative that I follow the second career choice outlined as per Workers' Comp., and that was the vocation of a Paralegal.

I sucessfully completed the Paralegal Program and graduated with high honors as such. Unfortunately, with both the US economy taking such a downward spiral, and the school not involving itself in student placement after graduation, I am now working as a waitress.

While all education is good education, and I am thankful for what all I've learned thus far, "Medical" truly is my passion in life. One day, God willing, I'll continue my education to obtain a BS in Biology in order to qualify to do what I previously won awards in, given my God-gifted ability to detect subtle microscopic rearrangements, or leave the state of Florida (where their backwards statutes prevent me from continuing in the field I was proficient in for over 15 yrs.), so that I can once again re-enter the world of Cytogenetics.

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